Dude...it's a miracle.

I have had 2, count 'em, 2 days where I have felt relatively normal. Yesterday and today.
I woke yesterday and literally had Imitrex and Vicodin for breakfast. Carmen and I had plans to attend a play group Valentine's Day party so I really didn't want to miss it. I made cute little gift bags full of yummy pretzel hug m&m treats. I was so relieved when the drugs worked. We ended up having a great day.  I must say, joining my mommy/play group was the best decision I ever made. Hands down. I have made a some really good friends, women who I have become super close with rather quickly. There are a couple that if I called them tonight in tears they would be over lickety split. I can't lie and say that my social anxiety and awkwardness has disappeared but I am finding that if I try, it's not so bad. It is so good for Carmen. She is so excited to hang out with her new friends. She needs the socialization, to be around other kids. 
This morning I cat napped on and off for two hours after Carmen woke me at seven. She watched some TV and I snoozed. When I woke for good my head felt pretty normal. We rearranged and cleaned her room. She was very helpful and laid right down for a nap at eleven thirty. I was so glad. I curled up in my bed and watched The Office on DVD, which was my Valentine's Day gift. Does my husband know me or what?! It snowed a few inches overnight so it was the perfect day for us to stay in and keep warm.
I have been having such fucked up dreams lately. I am convinced it is the drugs.  Last night my mom was moving and her boyfriend was angry at how much Winnie the Pooh stuff she had to move so he didn't want to help her. He wanted to build a green house in his living room...or something like that. Then my friend Jacque was going to move in with my mother and aunts and was moving her things in these giant black bags that looked like pairs of pants. There was furniture every where and it was so odd. Then it got kind of scary there was something after me and I lost Brandon on a train. He climbed in the sleeping car and wouldn't let me in and this little rodent thing was after me and I kept kicking it away. Bleh, I shuddered while writing that because in my mind it is so vivid. I hope tonight is dream free.
I have some good posts waiting in the wings so if my head feels fine tomorrow I may publish some.